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Wowzers it sure has been a long time since I posted last... but i had nothing nice to say, and "[my] Mom always used to say that if you can't say anything nice about someone, don't say anything at all. Luckily for me, she never said anything about just walking up and knocking the shit out of them" (Dez) so i decided to do niether... yeay for working quotes into a sentance so that they make sence. or maybe that was just me.. i dunno... and guess what... i dont care... wow what am I talking about? Not a clue but oh well rambling can be fun too... so what have i been doing for the last little while? Puking, eating, Puking, eating, Puking... no im not belimic ive been sick for about a month and a half with something like the stomache flu, its not fun... oh and then yesterday guess what? i get a sore throaght and a caugh too. holy crap i cant spell... i dont even know where im going with this but i was told to post anyway so yea... Had coffee with a friend on sunday... that was interesing... Was kinda hungry but mostly i felt kinda sick to my stomache.. so what do I do?? have a Medium roast black coffee with 2 sugars.... 15 minutes later i was shaking so bad i was getting strange looks from people... so we decide that maybe food will help fix me.... yea it did... but not for another hour or so after eating it... i finally quit shaking about half an hour before we went home... crazy day... failing most if not all of my classes at school im pretty sure... and i think i have to pay for all my classes for the spring semister tomorrow but i cant afford them all so i dunno what im going to do... i do know that i dont want to work for a semister but yea wow im so lost and im the one writing this... good luck to anyone who reads it... i like how i didnt puncuate properly and i barely tryed to spell too... thats awesome... plus i didnt press enter once... ok thats a like i did press enter but then i went back and fixed it so that its just one big long sentance and anyone who reads it are going to be like omfgwtfmang?!?! and then they'll just slap me next time they see me but thats ok cause ive been feeling kinda fiesty and want a good fight... though that'll be hard to find unless people team up on me and dont mind getting hurt but im going to stop now cause ive givenupspacingandspeelingandprettymuchall normalconversationskillsitstoobadthati
havetopressenterhalfwaythroughthewordsallthetime
becauseitmakesitannoyingijustwanttomakeonbiglongsentance
butifidothatmybloglayoutisgoingtobemessedupandoktimetoquit

MMMMM cupcake

I don't think you trust
In, my
self righteous suicide,
I, cry, when angels deserve to die

Father! Father! Father! Father!
Father Into your hands, I commend my spirit,
Father, into your hands,

Why have you forsaken me,
In your eyes forsaken me,
In your thoughts forsaken me,
In your heart forsaken, me
Why have you forsaken me


I love System of a Down - Chop Suey

I hate homework, homework is from the devil. Got way to much to finish by Monday at 1:00pm but it's definately not gonna happen, oh well, guess i'll just wing it on another math midterm. I love math, so easy.

Get In My Bellyh

oh god, it hurts.

today is the first day in about a week that ive eaten enough food... no.. no wait... enough HEALTHY food. my belly hurts so good.
had twice as much Chilli-on-toast as the rest of my family did. So tasty, and then since my mom just bought salad i had a plate of salad too. So I was full after that.
not eating for a week and then suddenly having SO MUCH FOOD hurts, I never realized how much my stomache shrank. oh well, this is probably the only time this week that i'll eat good too. yeay for spending all your weekend tips in 2 days wewt... sigh

Phil

Sometimes at night I... well I... I sleep.

I've decided that I need to post more.

*End of Post*

Clarification

I'm not sure if anyone has seen it but on the top of my blog i have a sentance...

"OF ALL THE THINGS I AM... I AM NOT TALL... I HATE YOU."

just some clarification on this sentance. I'm talking to the oh so wonderful for the self esteem Becca.

A long time ago, when I was at Becca's house in beverly for dinner I made a joke that insulted myself, purposely.
I said that I'm "tall, dumb and ugly".
to which Becca replied "Oh fill, you're not tall."

I hate you.

Confused

Why is it that everytime I start to feel better and I start to figure things out, God, or life if you dont believe in god, smacks me back down and sais try again. Does God/life enjoy watching me struggle? I mean seriously I just want it all to stop, I just want everything to be fix and mended and I want everything to be happy. Why can't I have that? Why can't I ever get what I want.
Ok, so God will say "Well thats what you want but what about what I want for you, what you need."

"God, man, seriously, Just make it stop it's too much."

"I never give you more than you can handle."

"WELL YOU"RE GETTING PRETTY FUCKING CLOSE!"

"But not more than what you can handle."

and you know he's sitting up there watching these things happening and he's thinking...

"Heh, heh, heh, that one knocked him back onto his ass, oh look he's about to stand... *flick* Doh! that one hurt Heh, Heh, Heh."



Seriously Just leave me the fuck alone. I think I'm loosing my religion.

Don't worry about me, I'll be ok, I just need time to figure out what the fuck is going on.

P.S. I fricken love my Goat. I know... dont say it.

Bleach - Nothing Can Be Explained (soundtrack)

Week from hell....

Monday and Tuesday morning were ok. Ryan made me go to Denny's on monday and we stayed there until about 2am talking with Becca, Jen, Chris, Cole, Joanna, and Dez when she showed up for work. We were out way to late that night, and I had a Physics lab at 8am, but oh well I'm the stupid idiot who stayed.

Next night Tuesday... the gaping maw of hell (the toillete bowl) opened up and swallowed me for a few days...
Tuesday Ryan drags me to Denny's AGAIN, after even more resistance than usual I finally agreed, and we ran into Joanna there, who was doing her homework, then came Josh, who was almost finished moving into his new appartment. Then Josh left to finish up. Dan, his girlfriend who's name I cannot remember (im sorry but i suck with names), and one of their friends (I've never met) showed up next, then Josh came back and we moved over to table 1 (a very large table.... the same table where we were sitting after Becca's super Awesome performance in her last play). And then came Stan and Dianna (his wife). and then Dez even though she wasnt working...
Tanja was on shift and once she got off at 1am she joined us too... and about 5 minutes after she left I had to go to the washroom... and thats when it happened.

I have vomited in the Denny's Handicap Washroom!!!! Yeay.

Poor Dez, we shared a spoon while eating a Fudge brownie too... I hope she doesn't get sick.

Anyway that continued for a day and a bit and now I'm all better.... now to catch up on 3 days of notes plus 3 last week that I missed cause of a similar Illness... I need to get back into shape, I think my immune system is stronger when im physically active.. Plus I feel like Fighting Someone again. Keep me away from Late Night Denny's. Actually scratch that... I wanna fight some of the really short servers there... *cough* Dez *cough*