WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Tips at Denny's were suprisingly good this weekend... worked Friday Latenight, Saturday Swing, and Sunday Swing, sold about $1400 for the whole weekend and made about $100 in tips... about.. too bad its all going to gas and to help pay off my 2 month late cell phone bill... UGG. oh and screw anyone who sais 7% sucks because honestly for ME I'm happy with 5%.

Ahh metaphors.

Forsaken By Destiny
Forsaken By My Own Mind.
I Must Remove My Skin
To See Belief In Your Eyes!

Dreaming of Denny's

So last night I worked 12-5 right? well that was ok, didnt make any money cause i had to borrow $15 for a float since i used all my change for bills and gas money... so yea i worked a good 5 and a half hours and ended up making 0 dollars. weeee.

Got home this morning at about 6-6:30. and went straight to bed. and woke up at 8am because i forgot to take table 19 their toast and they were mad. and then after that I was trying to cast arcane shot (from world of war craft) at table 24 and my pet (also from WoW) wasnt listening to me, and i woke up again.

The whole morning was spent trying to sleep without dreaming of working while playing WoW... I feel SOOO rested..... .... *cough*

Head feels wierd

My head has been feeling wierd all day. It's like everything is thick and heavy and it's like all my sensory receptors are slow cause i see something on tv and it takes a second to realize what i just saw. I dunno. imma have a shower hopefully that clears things up a bit. and also ive been caughing a lot today and my lower abs hurt like crazy every time i do. I'm falling appart in my old age :S (im 20 almost 21).

Oh and on a side note. my family hasn't seen my cat since last night. i hope he's ok. I'll miss him terribly if he's gone.

I have decided

Slipknot - Vermillion pt 2. is my current favorite song. Please download it. It's so sad, and loving at the same time. It makes me want to... I dont know, but it moves me.

I wont let this build up inside of me.
She isn't real, I can't make her real.

Slipknot

Vermillion



She seems dressed in all the rings
Of past fatalaties
So fragile yet so devious
She continues to see
Climatic hands that press
Her temples and my chest
Enter the night that she came home
Forever

Oh (She's the only one that makes me sad)

She is everything and more
The solemn hypnotic
My Dahlia, bathed in posession
She is someone to me

I get nervous, perverse when I see her it's worse
But the stress is astounding
It's now or never she's coming home
Forever

Oh (She's the only one that makes me sad)

Hard to say what caught my attention fixed and crazy,
Aphid Attraction
Carve my name in my face, to recognize
Such a pheromone cult to terrorize

I won't let this build up inside of me(x8)

(Yeah!)

I'm a slave, and I am a master
No restraints and, unchecked collectors
I exist through my need, to self-oblige
She is something in me, that I despise

I won't let this build up inside of me(x8)

SHE ISN'T REAL!
SHE ISN'T REAL!
I CAN'T MAKE HER REAL!
SHE ISN'T REAL!
I CAN'T MAKE HER REAL
(She isn't real, I can't make her real)
(She isn't real, I can't make her real)




Vermillion part 2


She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad

She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable Shes a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
(x 3)

I catch in my throat
Choke
Torn into pieces
I won't......no
I don't want to be this

But I won't let this build up inside of me
(won't let this build up inside of me)
I won't let this build up inside of me
(won't let this build up inside of me)
I won't let this build up inside of me
(won't let this build up inside of me)
I won't let this build up inside of me
(won't let this build up inside of me......won't let this build up inside of me)

She isn't real
(won't let this build up inside of me)
I can't make her real
(won't let this build up inside of me)
She isn't real
(won't let this build up inside of me)
I can't make her real
(won't let this build up inside of me)





Download both these songs. They're extremely good

Fear Factory

Resurrection

Consumed with memories that preceded today
Given a chance to bereave life that's slipping away

Suffered through tragedy of my slow decay
Deceptive tendencies dragged my soul away

All that I know there was no God for me
Force that shatters all, absence of mortality

Revive all my fears
Revive wasted tears
Revive void within
Revive once again...
Again... Again... Again... Again...
AGAIN!


Forsaken by destiny, forsaken by my own mind
I must remove my skin to see belief in your eyes

All that I know there was no God for me
Force that shatters all, absence of mortality

Revive all my fears
Revive wasted tears
Revive void within
Revive once again. . .

Revive all my fears
Revive wasted tears
Revive void within
Revive once again. . .
Again... Again... Again...

Reach for the sky
Touch the sky
Revive a hope
For mankind




Human Shields

So much violence in our name
A life, a silence masked in shame

Children running in the streets (streets)
Soldier boots are on their feet (feet)
Mothers bare the burdens of our defeats (defeat)
Fathers are on their knees praying for mercy (Mercy)

So much violence in our name
Holding me like your shield
Holding me like your shield

So much violence in our name
A life, A SILENCE MASKED IN SHAME!!

No more, no more, no more (no more)
No more, no more, no more (no more)
No more, no more, no more (no more)
No more, no more, no more

Holding me like your shield
Holding me like your shield
Holding me like your shield
Holding me like your shield

No more violence in our name
No more violence in our name!

No more, no more, no more

Fuck my cell phone

that is all

Gonna Get Into Shape Again WOOOOOT!!!

Hellz Yes. Going back to Tae Kwon-Do finally. Time to get off my lazy ass and do something with my time/life. I love it. I have classes most of the morning every day, cept tuesday and thursday. and then after school i have about 3-5 hours (depending on the day) to myself and my homework and then OFF TO TAE KWON-DO WOOT!! I cant wait. im so pumped. I dont want to wait for thursday.. (I could technically go tomorrow but its breaking and I want to wait a week before i start that again) I'm going to be SO fricken sore it's going to hurt more than anything (physically) that I can remember. I cant wait. so excited

Going to try to sleep now, but too excited. I dont want to wait a whole day. Maybe I can get ryan to come over (he signed up with me too) and we can start practicing and I can start remembering.

Peace out home dogs. and watch the fuck out for me. Imma be a ninja in 6 months... J/K one kick to the nuts and I'll be done...


Lol I said peace out home dogs....

On The Lookout

Ok, I need more music. 415 songs most of them angry arent enough. I need more angry music plz. just post the band and your favorite songs. i'll make sure i get the songs and i'll DL everything i can from the band too. k thx. btw stan i love your ass it's nice. k bye

Yeay for Denny's!

I don't want to work
I want to bang on the drum all day
I don't want to play
I just want to bang on the drum all day

Ever since I was a tiny boy
I don't want no candy
I don't need toy
I took a stick and an old coffee can
I bang on that thing 'til I got
Blisters on my hand
Because...

I don't want to work
I want to bang on the drum all day
I don't want to play
I just want to bang on the drum all day

When I get older they think I'm a fool
The teacher told me I should stay after school
She caught me pounding on the desk with my hands
But my licks were so hot
I made the teacher want to dance
And that's why...

I don't want to work
I want to bang on the drum all day
I don't want to play
I just want to bang on the drum all day

Listen to this
Every day when I get home from work
I feel so frustrated
the boss is a jerk
And I get my sticks and go out to the shed
And i pound on that drum like it was the boss's head
Because..

I don't want to work
I want to bang on the drum all day
I don't want to play
I just want to bang on the drum all day

I CAN BANG ON THAT DRUM
HEY, YOU WANT TO A BANG AT IT?
i CAN DO THIS ALL DAY

Fuck Denny's and Fuck my computer

Ok. Lets get something straight. I want to go to school, learn to be s.m.r.t. and get a good job. therefor I need money. which is why i dont book off most stat holidays like... new years day. New Years day is one of the last good tip days until march sometime when people recover from their december visa bills... Fuck denny's for making me be breaker on fucking new years fucking day. oh and for the record, i dont want to fucking float around for fucking 4 fucking hours while i help everyone else make good fucking tips. fuck you.

so i worked a good 8 and a half hours today, (oh and since it was so fucking busy no body got any 10 breaks, and almost everyone was bitching to me about it, yea fuck you guys too ... ... ) anyway i worked a good 8 and a half fucking hours while the restraunt sold about $7000 total (7 servers and 1 breaker) oh yea and i didnt even sell fucking $600. i hate the mother fucking cunt job. yea i used the c word. oh and did i make 10%? fuck that i never make 10% im happy when i make 5% but today was a good day for tips. i sold 600 and made 42. whats the fucking point of working there? i dont know. i think im going to apply at boston pizza and work night's. maybe i can make better money there. but probably not


Fuck my job, only reason i stay there is for the people, and most of the time i dont even work with the people i want to.

im dont time to format my fucking computer cause its a piece of shit.





fuck